So last night, months after leaving the church, I get a call from someone. At first I thought that they were also leaving and wanted to talk it over. Boy was I wrong about that impression. (hmm, feeling being wrong? Funny how that can happen!)
They had "Figured Out" my reasons for leaving. I'd been left out.
So here's something everyone needs to know. I don't give a fuck about how people treat me. If I had still felt the church was right for me, I'd still be in it, regardless of how I was treated. Because I learned very early on that I'm the one that matters in my life cause hey, I live 24/7 with me and everyone else can come and go as they please.
I don't have many friends. I'd consider three at most to be friends at this rate. Am I sad by that? No! Because I know I can count on these people.
I've had many, many experiences where I've discovered my "Friends" weren't friends at all. I've had my trust broken many times, been abused and manipulated, and I do not open up easily. But, I am content with my own company, even when people are not being welcoming and friendly.
So again, I did not leave because of people leaving me out. Cause they didn't, and even if they had, whatever! I'm an introvert anyways, I don't need people! I like people, but most of the time I liked sitting alone, hence why I sat alone. Funny that.
I will reiterate: I left to be true to myself. I woke up and saw the church for what they were when I learned about their actions in prop 8. I learned that they are manipulative and abusive. If you're tired of me saying this, guess what? I'm tired of it being necessary. So, leave. Me. Alone. If you want to chat? Fine, leave religion out of it. You want to hang out? Sure! Do not try to re convert me!
An do not tell me to keep an open mind, when in yours you're right and I'm wrong. Cause whose being close minded then?
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